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Well, it's been a long time since I've written one of these, 5 years infact. I'm shielding from COVID-19 at the moment with not a lot to do so thought I'd put my energy into something productive instead of playing Animal Crossing for 12 hour a day. A lot has happened and changed in 5 years, but as you can see from the photo above, I'm very much still passionate about makeup and I'm still dying my hair weird colours. (I think the yellow hair is my favourite so far.)

So... I guess we'll start from November 2015 which was when my last post was. Well, I had just finished an apprenticeship which was my first ever job which I absolutely adored. I worked a lot between 2015 and 2017 when I finally went to university.

2016 was a good year, I worked a lot, started a course with Open University in Psychology and then in May 2016 I went to Disneyland Paris with my pals Rachel and Karis and I had a blast, I then went back in November 2016 with my parents and my little sister and it was amazing!

                      

In 2017 I ended up finishing that course with Open University, with that and my work experience was enough for me to be accepted into university to study Social Work. I was over the moon! It was probably the biggest achievement in my life so far. So in September 2017 I packed all of my stuff up and moved all the way to Nottingham to pursue my dream of being a social worker. I met my best friend, Charl in first year at university and she was my absolute rock all throughout.


          

In 2018, after years and years of being told by doctors and psychiatrists that I had anxiety and depression, I finally received a diagnosis of Bipolar type 2. It felt like a huge slap in the face and I wasn't expecting it. It's not very talked about but it's so so difficult to find the right medication for you that will actually work. I spent months on lithium, only for it to make me feel worse and it took a year for me to find the meds that I am on now and have been on for a year that have helped stabilise my moods.

In April 2018 I got myself into a horribly toxic and emotionally abusive relationship, I'd be lying if I said that the things that were done and said to me weren't still etched into my brain to this day.

September 2018, I started my first work placement for my degree, I was working with adults at risk of homelessness who had secondary mental health involvement. I started this placement whilst in one of the worst depressive episodes I think I've ever had. November 2018, I tried to take my life. 2018 was a horrible year for me. A lot of people close to me at the time showed me their true colours after my suicide attempt and I cut off a lot of people not long after that as a result.

Fast forward, a month after my suicide attempt. December 2018, I ended up going for drinks with an old friend who I hadn't seen since I was about 17, he turned out to be the love of my life. Me and Joe ended up making things official in January 2019 and we've been together ever since. We're currently living together at my parents house and will soon be moving out together once I'm out of shielding and I'm able to start working again. Joe has seen me in some right states and he's never judged me nor made me feel bad for my bad days. I've had so much fun with him and he makes me smile almost all the time.



That takes us up to 2020...
We all know 2020 has been crap, let's not act like it hasn't been.

January 2020, I received some pretty life-changing news. I was diagnosed with Crohn's Disease (one of two forms of inflammatory bowel disease) and I was found to have fistulas all around my digestive system (fistulas are basically just holes), I am currently undergoing a form of chemotherapy to assist my recovery but Crohn's is a lifelong condition and there is no guarantee that I will be remission any time soon. Unfortunately due to my deteriorating physical and mental health, I had to withdraw from university as I was deemed not 'fit to practice' as a social worker. I was 3 months away from graduating.

Then Miss Corona made an appearance which meant because of me still being in a flare and undergoing chemo, I am in the shielding category. (In the UK this means, people with certain underlying health conditions, or taking immunosuppressive medications, we aren't allowed to leave our homes at all, these rules recently changed and we're allowed out for one daily walk)
Up until the other day, I hadn't left my house for just over 90 days which has been really difficult for me. I went for a drive with my mum the other day (I didn't leave the car, of course) and everything just felt weird.


So we're all up to date now I think! I wanted to restart this blog to document my journey with  Crohn's Disease, as I know I've found it a great help reading blogs of others dealing with IBD. 
Also, because of Crohn's I've had to completely alter my diet and I thought it would be good to maybe feature some of my favourite homemade gluten-free and vegan recipes that I've been making recently. 

I'm really looking forward to getting this blog up and running again, hopefully with more regular posts. Let me know what kind of posts you'd like to see and I hope Corona hasn't messed with your lives too much, it's such a horrible situation.

Lots of love,
Rachel xo
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This holiday release from Nars really appealed to me, because 1) I've missed out on every limited edition cheek palette that they've released so far. 2) I'm very much into quirky packaging. Doesn't get much quirkier than this. 3) All of the blush shades are gorgeous.

So Nars has teamed up with fashion photographer, Steven Klein for their holiday releases. The packaging of all of the sets is amazing (in their own weird way.)

Of course, this is limited edition, unfortunately. So you may want to try and get your hands on it before it sells out for Christmas.

So let's get into the palette itself.

(L to R - Paloma I: 3.5g, Paloma II: 3.5g, Laguna: 8.5g, Robotic: 3.5g, Blasphemy: 3.5g, Luster: 3.5g, Dolce Vita: 3.5g)
So this palette retails for £49 with an overall estimated value of £125.

I'm so pleased that Nars chose to include a contour blush duo in this palette, as I'm not really a blush wearer, but that kind of sold this palette for me. I'm also really pleased that you get a larger than average size of Laguna.

The blushes are the perfect shades for me. Pinky, mauvey blushes are what I gravitate towards. (Admittedly, the peachy-gold shade, Luster, will probably never be worn on my cheeks, makes a lovely eyeshadow though!)

All of the shades in this palette are the perfect amount of pigmented, like you can tap your brush into the pans and get a nice wash of colour but you'll never look like you've overdone it. (Except Paloma II, the cooler contour shade, beware, apply too much and you will look like you've splattered mud over your cheeks.)

You never really find yourself having to top up on blush throughout the day, we all know how long-lasting Nars' blushes are.

Paloma II (second top row) and Dolce Vita (fourth bottom row) are my favourite shades in this palette.

I think this is an amazing price, especially if you're wanting to try out some Nars cheek products. I meann, you're looking at spending roughly £20 per full-size blush (1 gram more than included in this palette) so to get 4 blushes is sort of insane.

I definitely think this is worth it for the amount of product you're getting. I'd give it a solid 8/10.
I'm obsessed.

That's all for now,
Rachel. XO
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Now I'm a huge fan of the Sugar Crush range by Soap and Glory. I was in dire need of a back up of my beloved Sugar Crush body wash and took advantage of the 3 for 2 offer Boots were having and noticed a couple of new products in the range, the Sugar Crush body spray and Sugar Crush hand cleansing gel.

Sugar Crush Body Wash

I feel like everyone and their mother in the blogging world has mentioned this at least once, it's a bit of a cult classic if you're a fan of sweet citrus scents. So first off, you get a massive bottle of the stuff. I can usually make this last for a good 6 months before I need to buy another. This is definitely a morning shower scent, it definitely wakes you up. The scent lingers for a long time, so you smell like a human lime for the rest of the day (which isn't necessarily a bad thing.) It's easily my favourite body wash ever and isn't the packaging just so cute?!

RRP: £6.50 and is available at Boots

Sugar Crush Body Spray

First off, the bottle is so cute looking. Secondly, this smells absolutely divine, although it's definitely not as strong as the body wash and the hand gel, which I think I would have preferred for a body spray, it doesn't smell as limey as the other two products either which was quite a disappointment. They do however have a new 100ml bottle of Sweet Lime and Vanilla Musk within the range, which is definitey on my wishlist. Nevertheless, this spray's nice for a little spritz.

RRP: £4 and is available at Boots.

Sugar Crush Hand Cleansing Gel

This is definitely my favourite of the two new products, I'm obsessed with hand sanitisers, I usually have three in my bag at a time (all different scents, of course.) And boy does this smell citrusy, I made the mistake of putting this on on the bus and it's all anyone could smell for the following 15 minutes. I find that a lot of hand sanitisers dry my hands out but this one is lovely. Although one little niggle, a lot comes out when you squeeze it, I've nearly used up most the bottle and I've only had it for a week, okay, I use it a lot but that's besides the point. It comes in a generous 50ml sized bottle and it's really affordable. 

RRP: £2.50 and is available at Boots.

Let me know what your favourite Soap and Glory products are.

That's all for now,
Rachel. XO
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So Stila brought out 4 palettes, Soul, Mind, Spirit and Body. I bought Soul.

I was so excited when I first saw this palette in January, the swatches looked perfect and when YouTubers like Claire Marshall, Zoella and Sprinkle of Glitter started raving about this palette, it made me want it even more. Apart from the one thing that was putting me off this palette - the very very mixed (mostly bad) reviews. I um'd and ah'd for a couple of months and finally took the plunge...

And I'm not very impressed.

So let me start off by saying, the packing is so so perfect. The lid is gold and bottom is rose gold. It comes with a little lookbook type of thing and it had a cute little eyeshadow protector with the quote "Since love grows within you, so beauty grows. For love is the beauty of the soul." by Saint Augustine.


The eyeshadows look gorgeous right? Yeah, I thought so too. They swatch really well too, as you will see a little further down the post. There is lots of sparkle and there's a good mix of warm and cool tones. But these are some of the least pigmented eyeshadows I've used in a long time. Kitten (far left, second row) is very very nice, but it is quite chunky. The matte black on the bottom row is one of the nicest blacks I've used. But does that justify spending £30 on this palette? Nuh uh. When worn on the eyes, they're quite patchy and takes a lot to build the colour up. The shimmer eyeshadows are either to chunky or the mattes are far too dry, there's no solid medium. As someone who suffers from psoriasis on their eyelids, this made my psoriasis flare up really bad because of how dry the eyeshadows are.

I apply a lot of eyeshadows with my fingers nowadays, and these eyeshadows just seem to stick to my fingers and not actually transfer onto my lid. I can usually pack a lot more colour on that way but this palette does not like that.

I really think you'd be better off buying a £6 Makeup Revolution palette or something. I think if you're after a 'barely there' make up look, this may be a good palette. But £30 to me seems like a waste of money. I'll keep using it for now and I may grow to like it, but for now it's not really my thing.

Stila make some amazing products from what I've tried (except their One Step Correct primer and this palette, they're a bit of a let down) but everything else is pretty fab.

I'm quite curious to see what their Spirit and Mind palettes are like but I can't bring myself to spend £60 on them especially if they're anything like this palette.

Sorry Stila, I still love you!

Let me know if you've used this palette or any of the other 3 palettes.

That's all for now,
Rachel. xo
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Hi guys! So it's been a little over a month and I've got a couple of new products this month, I thought I'd talk you through my highlighting and contouring favourites.

So these products are the best products I've found that work best on me. If you're a cool-toned, fair skinned gal like me, you might like these too!



MAC Powder Blush in 'Harmony'

This looks quite red-toned, it's quite the opposite and I'm not sure if it's a problem with the lighting or what. But this blush is a gorgeous mid-tone brown, leaning more towards the cool side. If you're fair/light skinned, you're going to really love this. It applies evenly but if used with a heavy hand, it can become hard to blend. I wouldn't use this a bronzer to warm up the face, as it does give the illusion of natural shadows and not a sunkissed glow. I find it is quite powdery as it is a blush and isn't specifically designed for contouring, there is minimal fall out when applying though. I would recommend this to someone who's maybe an NW15-NW20. I looked everywhere for this and it was sold out for about 2 weeks! I'd recommend buying from Debenhams as they seem to get this in stock more regularly than MAC, I feel.

This retails for £18 and can be bought here.


MAC Mineralize Skinfinish in 'Lightscapade'

Lightscapade is a gorgeous shimmery champagne highlight powder with pale pink and blue bits running through it. Compared to some highlighters I've tried, this isn't overpowering and isn't overly shimmery, so you won't end up looking like a disco ball. It gives a subtle highlight to the cheekbones and it just looks gorgeous in the pan, let's be honest. It's a baked powder, and I think it looks like a rather cute, girly little planet, haha. 

I did buy this around the time the Lightness of Being collection was released and I was debating on getting the rather cute looking limited edition version of this, but after reading reviews that were saying the formula was chalky and not very pigmented, I decided against it.

This retails for £23 and can be bought here.


Real Techniques Bold Metals Collection - Flat Contour Brush

Excuse how dirty my brush is, I couldn't be bothered to wash it for the purpose of this post, sorry not sorry. ;o
I can't quite express my love for this brush. This was the only brush from the whole collection that really appealed to me. I'm not sure if it's because of the gorgeous rose gold handle or the cute pink ombre bristles, but this brush just spoke to me.
The bristles are synthetic, meaning this brush is great with powder and cream products. The bristles are so soft and yes, I sat and stroked my face with this brush as soon as I received it in the post. The bristles are very dense, meaning you can pack a lot of product on but it also makes blending the easiest thing on the planet. This may be my favourite purchase of the year so far.

This retails for £22 and can be bought here.

Let me know what your highlighting and contouring must haves are!

That's all for now,
Rachel. xo
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Hi guys! This month has been a bit of a struggle so I do apologise for the lack of posts. Well, I've dyed my hair red and it looks pretty cool so that's something positive that happened last month. I've also decided to pluck up the courage to get driving lessons (eek!) so that's pretty scary and man, insurance is so expensive. Dad and I have been looking at a lovely little Peugeot 107, but that's a long way off yet. Need to actually have my first driving lesson, haha!

I've bought such a ridiculous amount of beauty items this month it isn't even funny, a lot of MAC was bought and I have no regrets okay.

So let's get into it shall we?

Hydraluron Moisture Jelly

 This has become my new favourite daily moisturiser. It's by the brand, Indeed Labs, they also make a serum that goes hand-in-hand with this. It's a jelly consistency and that rather flat lid is actually a pump which I think is much more hygienic. It feels lovely and cooling, it melts into the skin.

Retails for £24.99 from Boots 

Blush Palette in 'All About Pink' by Makeup Revolution and MUA Eyeshadow Palette in 'Elysium'

I've smothered these palettes all over my face nearly everyday. 
I do find that the blush palette is a bit too pigmented so you need to use a light hand for sure. The eyeshadow palette is so pigmented and the mattes in this palette are fabulous!

Both retail for £6 and are available from Makeup Revolution and MUA.

MAC Eyeshadow Quad in 'Devilishly Dark'

This is a very very lovely, limited edition eyeshadow quad by MAC, I've had this since last summer and I've only recently rekindled my love for it. It's a lovely everyday palette, I usually use the bottom left shade 'honey lust' on it's own with a little bit of the bottom right shade 'devilishly dark' running through the crease.
It's no longer available to buy anymore. :(


MAC Lipstick in Russian Red

This is a gorgeous blue based red, it's a matte lipstick but goes on really smoothly and it's quite creamy considering. It's very very pigmented, it's a deepish red but nowhere near as deep as Diva by MAC. It retails for £15.50 from MAC Cosmetics.

MAC Eyeshadow in Folie

This is actually my new brow colour, after dying my hair red I decided I couldn't go around with black eyebrows still so I was on the hunt for a very red toned brown. I looked all over Superdrug and Boots and I coudn't find one matte red toned brown eyeshadow (what's all that about?!) so I heard a lot about this eyeshadow and when I saw swatches I knew it would be the perfect brow colour, and it is! It retails for £10 in pan form or £13 in full packaging from MAC Cosmetics.

Limited Edition Kelly Osbourne MAC Lipstick in Dodgy Girl

I managed to hunt this lovely lipstick down on Depop, I managed to get it for £15 including postage, I'm kind of obsessed with Kelly Osbourne and I was gutted I missed this collection when it came out, I was not willing to spend £40+ like some people were trying to charge. It's a very nice light lilac colour, makes you look very tanned aswell. It's a matte lipstick but again, goes on quite creamy.
If you hunt this lipstick down, I suggest you buy it while you can.

Urban Decay Perversion Mascara and Seventeen Stay Time Concealer

This mascara is one of the best mascara's I've ever tried. It's lasted me just over two months aswell. I just love it. Stay Time concealer blah blah best concealer ever blah blah, you know how much I rave about it.
Perversion mascara is available from here and the concealer is available from here.


Bed Head by TIGI Colour Goddess Shampoo and Conditioner Set

I can't quite express my love for this shampoo and conditioner, I've never been able to find a drugstore colour care shampoo that doesn't do the exact opposite. The conditioner makes my hair feel so so soft, I love using the set together. The bottles are 750ml so they'll last ages.
 IT SMELLS LIKE TOFFEE TOO.

RRP: £22.99 and can be bought here


Let me know what your favourites of January were! :)

That's all for now,
Rachel. xo
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Hi guys!

So recently I've been really into coming home from work and sticking my 'Calm Things' playlist on, I've got to stop listening to it on the bus on the way home though, as I always find myself drifting off to sleep, oops. This post will consist of my top 5 songs I listen to when I want to be chilled out and relaxed.

Let's go!

1. Andreas by Seahaven.

To be totally honest, this whole album by Seahaven is my favourite to listen to when I want to relax, but this is my favourite from the album.


2. Evelyn by Gregory Alan Isakov.

Just listen to that voice...


3. Santa Monica by The Front Bottoms.

Possibly the most upbeat song on this list.


4. Stuck On The Puzzle by Alex Turner.

Alex Turner is easily one of my favourite songwriters so he was going to be on this list in some way or another.


5. Hold Back The River by James Bay.

I don't think this needs a description, just listen to it, goddamnit.


A lot of these songs are actually quite sad, so this could also be a sad songs post (I can think of much sadder songs though, hahah) 

I hope I've introduced you to some music that you might not have heard before and I hope they make you as relaxed and sleepy as they do to me.

What do you do to relax?

That's all for now,
Rachel. xo

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My name is Rachel, I'm 23 and I'm from Norfolk, UK. I write about life, beauty, mental health and Crohn's Disease.

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